Tension

Can you handle the tension, without taking it personally?
Can you take the tension seriously and not your reactions
Focus on it without trying to direct it
Feel the emotions but don’t identify with them
Let it stretch you and shape you while not lashing out

Take the energy and run with it,
but don’t let it run you ragged and don’t outrun it

Pause and focus when necessary,
but out of need and not out of habit

Are you up for it?

"...in love and in psychological growth, the key to success is the ability to endure
the tension of the opposites without abandoning the process, and that this tension
allows one to grow and to transform."
--Carl Jung

Note: Quote from Jung has been slightly bastardized

Self Consciousness

Being self conscious is being apart from yourself.

You try to separately process each action and thought before committing to it.

You carve out a space in your own consciousness and sit there and judge.

But it is a rudimentary way to be aware of some of your own behavior.

It is an attempt to be more self aware.

But you only tend to see what you focus on and everything else gets blurred so in the end you probably see less.